Finally, I started this blog. The last time I started a blog was when I am a PHD student. the blog was called something the secret of a phd student. Everytime I feel harshness in my life I need to find a neutral place to write it off me. I have friends who would listen, I have family who would listen. But i will only pass on the burden to them. This is a place I could dissipate the dark energy to the cyber space. Sharing the frustration with everyone unknown will dissipate the frustration to an empty space.Still I hope there will be people following this blog, if there is no resonance, there is no dissipation. This is a blog that is absolutely no one I know should find out.

Who am I, I am many person. I am a Chinese, a Swedish, a phd, a post doc in top 5 university in the world, a husband, a father of two, now a CEO for a startup in silicon valley. I am all those things before I am 30 years old. Now at the time I am writing this, I just aged to 31.

My biggest strength has always been I know exactly what I want to do. However this was not always so clear to me. My biggest weakness is I want to so much and it frustrates me that I dont know how to get there.

So what do I want? I want to be a person that makes a name in the biotech business. I want to be the person everyone will talk about and think about when they think about biotech. Similar to that stanford girl from Theranos, except I can live up to the expectation. so those are very loosely defined. Lets define it with more details.

I want to have:
1. A reliable team of engineers and business people that can be MINE to control and use and utilize.I want to have 10 engineers that can work for me for free.

this is what I need

optical engineer
physics engineer  Mike?
electrical engineer ?
computer scientist/programmer Han Wei
mechanical engineer Lewis
assay chemist ?
process engineer John?

investor  man chen
business ?
operating officer in China?


people that may be useful


ok, this is a long list, so I still need to have multiple positions to fill. I need to find those people as well.

I need followers. But how can I get follower if I am so miserable and poor. I dont have so much resource in money to get things started even. I dont want to get in angle or investors yet. Mike is one of my best friend. I should have no problem talk him into following me, however this is hard to get him to spend too much time with  me because he just become father. And the fact we are not on the same continent also makes things bad. How could I talk him into helping me and do things together?

baby steps, baby steps!

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